Missing puzzle

It's never easy to be falling in love...
It's hard to accept certain things that doesn't come well along your way...
It's hard for me to get to know who the real you...
It makes me feel in deep thoughts about what exactly's happening...

Where do I really belong?
Where do u really place me?
Am I far away from you, as high as the mountain?
Am I too near you, till I can hear your slow breathes?

Do you care for me when I made such hasty decisions?
Do you care what I feel?
Do you understand what I've been going through lately, all these while?
Do you understand what kind of sacrifices have I went through?

Am I always being the selfish one?
Am I always the one having the big ego?
Am I the one who makes your life suffer, who makes you cry and gives you little happiness?
Am I the one who doesn't make a difference in your life?

Tell me... What should I do now?
To stay or just to move on?
To loved or just be loved?
To forgive or just to forget?

Love is only a four letter word...
How much do you understand by that?
How much do you mean it everytime you say it?
Is love hatred? Or is love wonderful?

I've lots of different perception on love...
One side, it is beautiful...
On the other side, is ugly...
At one minute, it can be wonderful...
The next minute, it can be hurtful...

I wouldn't want to be so engrossed in love...
Let love comes in its own way...
Maybe I shall die for love...
Or maybe the love is dying inside me...

With love,
Hinata