Gratitude

Dear P,
You've hurt me enough till I changed my perception and feelings towards men. Till I began to think that men are all the same. You made me feel so bad about my own self. You pinpoint alot of my mistakes, be it in front of others or behind them. You never even look at how well I did in my previous years, you never even look a single of what I've done. You never appreciate what I did for everyone, not even for you. Why? Why must you have a change of feeling and attitude at the slightest smallest mistake that I did? Why must you gave such hurtful remarks and find fault with me? Why must you compare me with others? Do you think it can make me a happy, successful and well-liked by everyone if I do things that you wish to see? Why must you have this unpredictable behaviour? One minute you'll be alright, the next minute you have this hatred feeling.. I've endured so much of your nonsense. I've been treated unfairly and sometimes I just felt that it'll be great if I'm gone for good. I don't wish to breathe the same air as the others, same air as you. I need my own space. I need my own happiness but you never see it in my point of view. You never even asked any of my opinions. You decide everything for yourself, for others. You didn't give me a chance to voice out everything and my decision. You controlled everything that you can. You think of yourself sometimes, instead of others. Are all men like this? No matter what, I still respect the way you are towards me. I do know that despite all those hurtful remarks and comparisons that you gave me, I know you still care for me. I will endure till my last breath...


Dear D,
You have always been there for me when I need you. And I'm sorry for whatever mistakes that I've done. There's too much of them. The burden, the sadness, every single thing... I carried them by myself for 24 years of my life. You changed me for the better. You gave me wings and picked me up when I fall, you wiped my tears away when I cried, you comfort me and offer a shoulder for me to cry on and a listening ear for me to share my probs with you. You gave me fruitful advises and many more just to make me feel good. You've been the best among the rest. Even if I'm gone, you know the reason why. I don't want to be selfish and I want to give in to you. My happiness is within you. And of course, I'm imperfect but I will try to be perfect for you. My prayers is for you and the rest, never for me.


Dear N,
You're the bestest bestie I've ever had. You understand me and you're there for me when we share our probs together. No one can replace you and I wish to have an everlasting friendship with you. I feel grateful to have known you for quite some time and I treasure our friendship till my last breath. You're such a wonderful person, you know that don't you? And I know, you're surrounded by wonderful people and thank you for putting your trust in me. Insya'allah, I'll be there for you when you need me.


Dear L,
Life isn't a bed of roses. We share the same probs sometimes, we have the same feelings and perceptions towards certain people and for that, I understand how you feel whenever you're down. I treasure our friendship from the moment that 'frog' entered your life. Heh! But whatever it is, your happiness is somewhere out there. Search for it, sweetie... I know you've been enduring alot of unhappiness within you but you're strong to face them by yourself. And I respect the way you handle certain things.


Dear K,
You know that you're the most irritating person that I've ever met. I don't need to tell you that. Heh! And of course, I can still endure be it forever. I wonder why I can endure it and of course, no one can take over your title. Irritating you may be sometimes, yet a problem-solver, great friend and gives good advises. You make me feel good whenever you're around. Your crazy jokes makes me laugh everytime when I'm down. You're there for me as always. Thank you for being there... I know it makes you happy whenever you make others happy. And please, don't stay single for the rest of your life. You're born to have a partner.


Dear H,
Although we just got to know each other, I just feel that we clicked off very well and you're such a nice person to be with. Comfortable is the word, when you're around. You're just too nice and too cute to be true. And of course, I treasure the beautiful friendship that we had. I wish we could have known each other few years back but it's alright. And please, I care for your health. So you better take good care of yourself. Rasengan! Hehe!


Dear R,
Even though we just got to know each other, I feel that we clicked off well too. Just like my friendship towards H. You're such a nice, sweet, bubbly girl and not forgetting, caring. Thank you for being such a great friend. May our friendship blossom in the future. Wishing you the very best in your relationship and your future endeavours.


Dear M,
It's really nice to stumble upon you again and of course, I've yet to know you better. But through blogging, I felt that I became closer to you virtually. Having to know your personal life and sharing of thoughts etc, that made me feel good to know the real you. I thank Allah for giving me the second chance to get to know you closer. Alhamdulillah. And I wish you the very best in whatever you do.


Yours truly & sincerely,
Hinata